Resolution

All I really want is a community of interesting people to talk to and the freedom to do so at any time, in any way.

College has given me both of these freedoms, but it will be all I can do not to break the fragile beauty of the current arrangement.

The most present threat to this dream of freedom is my own neurotic drive to do everything, under a variety of false impressions, not the least of which is that more classes=more learning. More classes DO NOT mean more learning; I illustrated the beautifully this morning by reading deep, interesting, and philosophical essays before class, then spending class time zoning out and making dead baby jokes. Partially, this is because I connected better with the essays than with the class, and partly I just couldn't hear my professor, but the example remains true; I can learn better, perhaps, outside of class.

This changes the objective of college a great deal. My new objective, then, should be stated:

Stay here, in college (for the community and the freedoms) while taking as few classes as possible (because this gives me more time to really learn).